My Practice

i wonder how long it takes to truly know someone. i mean, to really see them, in all of their glory and gutter-ness. and accept them with and in love.

i can accept just about any kind of character trait or eccentricity or weirdness. until it’s anger or meanness or accusation directed at me, and then i react in one of two ways:

  • i become immediately defensive and start denying whatever the thing is that i’m being accused of, even before i have time to think and consider what’s being said.
  • i shut down, stop reacting at all because i’ve immediately been wounded and hurt by the anger or meanness. i can’t think and i can’t breathe. both of these reactions are from the ego.

i try to always come from a compassionate place, yet i push sometimes. i push to get someone to see the world the way i do, from a place of joy. from a place that the universe is here to help and guide us to live better, more contented lives. i want others to see what i see. i push from the ego, literally saying my way is best.

this is my dilemma – the need to guide others to joy. and i know i have no right to do this. and it angers some. and it causes some to believe i’m self-righteous. by doing this, even though i stated earlier that i accept nearly all, it isn’t true because if i truly accepted, i wouldn’t push them to be other than who they are and where they are.

this is my practice – remaining in compassion, in joy, in love, while leaving others to find their own path. even if that path is self-destructive. because i can’t change how another sees the universe or their life and life’s circumstances. i can only stay on my path, with my eyes wide open to continually discover where my path leads. and it doesn’t lead onto someone else’s spiritual road.

this is my practice. this is what i understand today. i can pray that others find joy but i have no place in that decision. this is my practice. this IS my practice. THIS IS MY PRACTICE.

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About tari brand

Hi everyone! I'm so glad you're here. I hope you move closer to what your spiritual truth is in this place we call earth from reading my journal. I've been investigating for over 30 years why we're here, in this moment, and have found countless ways to help others relax and enjoy the ride. Hope you'll join me!
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  1. I sincerely appreciate you sharing your practice…

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